Finding something you never ever thought you could have, and only dreampt the most surreal dreams about comes true. Its unimaginable, its so drastic and a big deal but when you find it and once again loose it, and just can't seem to let go that when you start to loose hope. Everything everyone ever wants, is what you can not have no matter how much you want it or how much you try. You can sacrific but to know it wasn't suppose to happen doesn't that make you wonder that you weren't suppose to go through this. Things come and go, and the things that really matter go too. No matter how much you want it, or how hard you hold on, everything just comes and goes. It makes you think what life is really about, is it about happiness or once that comes is that just going to get taken away too? The only thing that seems to like to stick around is misary accompanied by pain and hurt. They make a great trio, no matter how much you just want them to go, they stick together and are the most difficult things to push back out when they arrive. Pain, Hurt, and Misary are three of lifes worst qualities, and yet your stuck with them for your whole life, no matter how much you hate them some things just never change and never will. Lifes a bitch, try not to help pass on the trio to anyone else, no matter how bad it is, no one deserves it no matter what.
Sometimes when your so far down all you want is for someone to stick with you at your side to help you up, just so that you know your not alone and you wont have to be untill your ready. Sometimes its nice to know how much people care and how much they really appriciate you. Sometimes you just wish things were different, and that things would just change this once for you, because its something you want so badly. Sometimes life just sucks, and most the people in it are just a whole lot of ignorant people who are just taking up the empty room left inside of you, just so this one time you can feel like no ones missing. Sometimes you try so hard to convince yourself of one thing so that much it seems unbelievable, andjust sometimes it hurts to know you can't even tell yourself the truth and you think of lies to cover it all up. Sometimes what you think is best is the worst thing possible and anything but the truth is just a lie no matter how big or small it may be. The truth may hurt, but a lie is just as bad or so much worse. Sometimes its just nice to hear a lie to cover everything else up, and make you smile for once no matter what the outcome at that point in time at least its happiness. Sometimes you just do what it takes, and this time isn't sometimes.
I pretend to be strong, when in reality, I am dying inside. But I have to be strong, for my family...at least, that's what I tell myself. If I am not strong for them then who will be?
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